As we celebrate Paul’s 12 month anniversary of his passing, I have sat back and reflected on those 12 months and what I have achieved and created. I have faced many challenges, especially around creating a life without Paul. Although I have not felt lonely, I miss the conversations that Paul and I had. […]


  I had a conversation with mum today and she mentioned about the new melanoma wonder drug and the story about a man that was riddled with melanoma, was on this trial drug and terminal with months to live and now is healthier and planning on going back to work.  Mum said that she was […]


When Paul was diagnosed as terminal and with months to live the enormity of that one statement was overwhelming. Whilst we continued to live as normal as possible, we always had hope that the cancer would just go away, vanish.  But this concept was living in denial.  It is easier to live in denial than […]


  Have you ever been asked to keep a promise? Have you asked someone else to keep a promise? If you have, did you keep that promise? Some promises may be difficult to keep considering the circumstances and may change over time.  It may also depend on what is asked and if it is achievable […]

Paul’s Words Of Wisdom

  We were fortunate enough to film Paul before his untimely death and he offered some words of wisdom about life. He was asked was there any words of wisdom.  Paul’s response was well you got to live life to the fullest and be caring.  Sometimes it is better off to bite your tongue and […]

Leap of faith

  On our journey in this lifetime, at some stage there is a moment where it’s time to let go.  Trust in the universe and take that leap of faith. Taking that leap may lead to an amazing experience but won’t be fulfilled or completed until you take that initial step. That first step may be […]

Lost Loved Ones

    When we loose a loved one, we don’t only loose the person but also everything that the loved one did in our lives. I had this thought that when I lost Paul, I didn’t only loose the man I loved and who was my soul mate but also his humour and the conversations […]

New Beginnings

  As we head into another new year, I thought I might share some reflection. In 2013 I wanted more peace and serenity, all things to go smoothly and no more drama.  I wanted a new year, a new look and a new me! Financial abundance a definite wish. That was 4 years ago and […]